Love- Do you want to fuck it too!

 Happy Thursday my lovelies,

      How do you feel about love? Are you a hopeless romantic? Are you the type who watches romantic movies by yourself, and wish you were the leading character in them? Or am I just describing myself?  I am not afraid to admit that I Love Love. I love to be in Love. I love to have that special someone in my life, who I can talk to when I am feeling down, who I can rely on for those words of reassurance. Who will tell me that I am his everything and more?

  Don't we all look for a love to complete our lives? I know I am not the only one.  Young love, Middle Age Love and That good old love. I want it all. I thought I had it but it all came tumbling down. As a matter of fact, I thought I found my real love several times. Only to find out that it was mere infatuation. 

INFATUATION noun

1. an intense but short-lived passion or admiration for someone or something.
2. provided by google search.     

Now that I am older, I know what I want in a relationship. I know that I want love( of course), I want realism, I want honesty, I want compassion, and I want my best friend.  Is that so much to ask? I would love to have a man who places GOD first and foremost in his life just as I do, but I will not push my beliefs onto him. Sometimes I just want to forget all about love and just live my life.  Love can become so burdensome at times. You have to put so much of yourself into a relationship to make sure that it's all good, that your partner is feeling wanted and loved and oh so very much needed. If you don't put all of those things into play the problems within the relationship will begin. At times, I just want to say FUCK LOVE!

 

 I am saying all of this to say that True Love begins within. I finally realize that now. AFter putting myself through so much over the past years, and believing everything that I saw , well not believing it, but romanticizing about that kind of love in my life, from what I see on movies. That kind of love does not exists unless you love yourself first. I mean really and truly love yourself, be happy with who you are. Be happy and content with being by yourself for a while. Take yourself out on dates, go to the movies by yourself, and just enjoy that time.  Do not look for validation from others. 

  I am going to start a journey of self-love and self-are. I am in a relationship but I am going to place GOD first, then myself, then US.  

Love on you first! 

Happy Thursday! Memorial Day Weekend is upon us, lets eat drink and be merry. Lets also stay safe out there.

LOVE YA!

RAQCI DEE